Fraudulent Behavior
- ashleyspeak22
- Jan 31, 2023
- 2 min read
If there is one thing I pride myself on, it is being transparent and honest. I am not perfect by any means, but I know when I have to take a moment and be honest with my folks. So...here it is: I suck at spending time with God.
I'm sure someone is thinking, "Really girl? That's it? That's all?" Yep, it is. I often find myself sharing on social media about trusting God, seeking Him, and trusting his plan for us, but ya'll...your girl struggles daily. I was convicted after watching a sermon led by Pastor Mike Todd. It was timely as I have been praying for #AshleySpeak to go to another level, yet I'm willing to stay at surface level with God. It's hard for me to admit that I struggle with staying on course with God. To let go of outside noise and distractions to seek him completely. I struggle with having a platform to encourage and uplift women to see themselves and their purpose in God, yet I don't put in the work to do that for myself.
So how do we, me, I, us...get to a better place of time with God? We start by seeking Him. Seeking his love. His kingdom. His love. That can be done by actually, you know, spending time with him. If we can cake on the phone with a special someone, text for hours, and in my case, scroll social media for hours on end, we can absolutely devote time to God, his word, and prayer. The true key to this is making the time. Making the time to silence our phones, our thoughts, and our schedules to just be in total communion with God. Every day won't be smooth, but if we can put in the effort, we can truly devote ourselves to getting closer to the One who loves us the most.
Well, I appreciate the time you took to read about my struggles, and my prayer is that you are able to take that time after you close out of my blog to spend some time with God.
I can relate. Just like our bodies tend to send us warnings when we need to rest so does our spirit when it senses that we haven’t spent enough time connected to our source. That sense is usually the Holy Spirit nudging us back when it becomes uncomfortable with the new environment. We just have to know that God is patient & that we are to be just as patient with ourselves.
Transparency is real and this topic is often a battle for me. I am so busy all day long doing things that I never stop to think how much of my busyness is actual for my spiritual good. I am working on clearing my plate and centering in on time well spent. This year I want to turn my focus from my busy mind to the One who settles it. Truly inspiring post...keep doing what you are doing, its working.