In This New Season...

I've spent the last 30 minutes at my computer trying to come up with some truly inspirational words to encourage you, but I realized I had nothing for you. However, I did have something for her. The photo you see is of me when I believed I was at my least attractive. Each time I'm fortunate enough to see a new year, I think of her. I reflect on the challenges she faced, the feelings of loss, hurt, and longing she experienced. Although her smile is bright, it conceals deep hurt, a spiritual struggle between spirit and flesh, and pain. Pain from wanting love, feeling insignificant, and facing rejection.

One of the toughest challenges I faced was realizing the intense struggle between my flesh and spirit. My spiritual mentor, the late Pastor Michael E. Coleman, often spoke about the strength of the flesh, and I didn't truly understand its power until it took control of me. It distanced me from God, filled my mind with negative thoughts, and led me to believe that everything about myself was untrue.

In this new season, I am proud to say that I am in a state of longing and seeking God, experiencing a sense of peace, and most importantly, appreciating my inner beauty as much as my outer beauty. I urge you, if you're beginning the year in a situation that isn't where you'd like to be, to overcome any negative thoughts and emotions. Look to God in everything, don't hesitate to seek assistance, and most importantly, let go of trying to do it all alone. You don't need to bear the weight of the world, so ensure that the love you offer to others is also given to yourself first and foremost.

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